The fat one

We all have those family members. You know the ones... the big one, the funny one, the tall one, the blonde one, the skinny one and the fat one.  For the last 13-14 years, I have been the "fat" one of my moms children. No, don't get bent out of shape. I am not being self depreciating. I am still the cute one and the sweet one. Haha

Losing weight has been such a long process that I started to lose motivating about a year ago. I had to change the way I thought. I would hide from friends until I hit a certain goal, ashamed that they were not going to see the progress I made thus far. Dumb huh?  I am not sure how she said it but Kelly and I had a talk one day and the gist of it was that I had taken years to put the weight on, it was not going to disappear over night. Additionally, she reminded me that all my friends loved me at my largest, they will love me today and in 5 lbs. I suppose I was just ashamed. Bottom line. How much had I missed out on because of that?

As I get ready for the baby shower of my new niece, Ellie. I am putting on my newest outfit I got just for today. I couldn't risk getting it any earlier then yesterday because clothes don't fit around here for more then a few weeks. Haha.

Size 12 jeans: same cut and brand that I just got in a 14 a few weeks ago.I can not remember when I was a size 12.  My prom dress was at least a 14-16.

Size Medium top: I tried it on and a sales girl came out of the wood work and told me that I had to buy it. I had fantastic shoulders.

When Ellie is born, she will know me as many things but I have a chance to start fresh.  Ellie will always remember me slimmer. I won't be the "fat" aunt. Crazy, loud, silly, active and energetic maybe, but not fat.