New Heights!

Have you ever seen those signs at the amusement park that warns you that there is a really good chance that if you are over weight, you're not fitting in a ride? Well I have.  I have dreaded amusement parks for the last 10 years pretending that I really did not like them. I did not want to risk being asked to turn around in a line or getting in and the seat-belt not fitting.  It was just easier to stay my big ass on the ground and hold everyone's crap.  It is not a fear that I have really ever voiced, it was something that I was very ashamed of.  I even went as far as having a sit down talk with my ex-husband about not forcing me to try and get on rides. Okay, so I threatened him within an inch of his life. lol. 

On Thursday, my mom called me and asked me to go to Kings Dominion with her and my little cousins.  She needed an answer immediately.  I also knew that she didn't need me to hold everyone's stuff, she needed someone to go on rides with the kids.  Immediately I searched my brain for some excuse and came up a stuttering mess.  I hung up the phone having agreed but was not a happy camper.  I don't like amusement parks. I mean, I did when I was a teenager but not any longer.  But did I? I started giving it some thought.  I have conquered so much in the past 2 years, how is it that I am afraid of a roller coaster?  I  jumped over fire, I did a half marathon, I put on a bikini.  I am freaking fearless now. That was kinda when I had that "Ah Ha" moment.  When I faced the facts and recognized what I was really afraid of. Then I had my "OH HELL YEA" moment.  I have lost 80+lbs.  I don't have to worry about any of that any longer.  Unknowingly, I had unleashed another beast.  The roller coaster beast.  For the first time since I was a teenager, I was excited to go to an amusement park.

At the park, I most certainly got all my walking for the day in.  On top of that, several times the kids and I literally ran from ride to ride.  Every time I caught myself running, I smiled inside.  This is a benefit of losing weight that I never thought of.  This was what really having "fun" is like.  On top of that, some dude came up to me out of no where and complimented my shoulders.  Shoulders? Really?  That was exactly what I needed and wanted to hear.  I know I am a hot tamale.  I know my eyes are pretty, I have a nice smile, blah blah blah...  This was a new something that was getting me checked out.  Yea, man!

So back to the New Heights part of the title.  Yet again, I was reminded that I was no longer limited by anything or anyone because of my weight.  While I was standing in line for Boardwalk Fries, (not for me), I saw the ride the Drop Tower.  How high was it? Freaking high as hell!  I could do it.  I should do it.  I would do it.  I ran up to my mom and the kids and told them that I was going for it.  I had to go right then and there before I talked myself out right out of line. The look on their faces was priceless. I got in line and committed to it.  I locked myself in with room to spare too.  There is no explanation for how high 272 feet is.  I think I could see Baltimore from that high.  When we dropped, the feeling of weightlessness felt like it was never going away.  I had such a rush of adrenaline, fear, shock and excitement that I actually teared up a little.  It may have been my bodily fluids draining back from my scull but I was pretty sure it was happy tears.

What a fun day.  What an obstacle to conquer.  This journey unlocks doors that I never even recognized were there.  How awesome?!?!?