Change

My blog is littered with ah'ha moments that I have had over the past year or so.  Every one of those moments just get more and more mind blowing.  The more weight that I drop, the more that I dig down inside of myself to uncover new things.  I honestly believe that if I was reading some of this blog as an overweight person, I would read most of it and think to myself, "What the hell is she talking about?".  There are just some parts of this journey that you have to actually walk to understand.  Just reading it will never be enough.  So why do I write it? Well, I write it because I know that it helps me organize my thoughts.  Often, I do not even have a formulated plan about what I am going to write.  I have a thought, I start typing and all of the sudden... BAM!  I have a blog post.  I write it because I know that there are a few of you out there who are approaching or have the significant weight loss that I have achieved and may be struggling with the same things.  I write this because I know that there are a few of you that are just beginning your journey.  Some of this may not apply now, but when it does, I can sorta help provide a reference for you.

Losing 10 pounds is great.  Losing 20 pounds is fantastic.  Losing 30 pounds is life altering. Every single pound is significant, every single pound is a tribute to your success.  Your determination.  Your hours that you put in the gym and fixing your meals.  At 96lbs. down, (on a good day), my life is different.  I am different. There is almost nothing about my day that is the same as it was a year ago.  It has to be different.  I had to change who I was.  I was not happy being fat, lazy, sore, ugly, negative and insecure.  You can not be the same person you were and expect to turn your life in a whole different direction.  If you make small changes in your life, your results will be small.  If you make big changes, your results will be big.  I didn't wanna loose a little weight and make a change from very fat to just a little fat.  I wanted to change myself from very fat to very fit.  There is a huge difference between those two places.  If I didn't reinvent myself, then the Lori that I was 2 years ago would not have let me make the time in my day to workout every day.  That Lori would have chosen McDonalds for lunch today instead of spinach salad.  I didn't like her, she didn't do anything good for me.  I think different, I look different and I feel different.  I am a changed and changing person.  That is not at all a bad thing.

The people that tell you that you shouldn't change are the people that are satisfied with where they are or are satisfied with where you are.  Both are unhealthy voices. If you want to change, do it.  No one can do it for you.